CHIPS AHOY. They used to be bigger, now they are way smaller and the size change disappointed me. :( but still, it will always be my first love in chocolate chip #cookies #chipsahoy #kraft #food #sweet
I know I have crappy qualities in me and inasmuch that I try to forget these bad qualities in me, there are instances that these would resurface, and I would feel bad, really bad.
A little amount of self-control and external influence drove me again to repeat such bad qualities. I often ask myself, “why the heck do I never learn?” I mean, I know the theories and the possibilities, yet I still do it and I would regret such stupid decisions of not getting any better.
A sense of belittlement comes. Oh well, I can always use the premise that humans are not created perfect and are bound to make mistakes along the way. Yeah yeah, but then again, it does not remove the fact that I feel bad about myself. Haaaaiz! :|
I stumble, and I hate that feeling. Now all I have to do is to rub off the dust and rise again to my journey in finding the purpose of my existence.
Gym gym din pag may time :p :))
I am Superstar shining, making waves to achieve my fabulous dreams :D #StyleOrigin2013 mode at @iloveabreezamall :D
THROWBACK THURSDAY BA KAMO? Eto oh, F4! :D #throwbackthursday #tbt #f4
I NEED MORE COURAGE
No doubt, I still want to work as a writer, be involved in brainstorming and creative process of an awesome output and see the joy of the finished product being enjoyed by the readers.
Yeah, I do dream of working in a fashion/lifestyle magazine. I wanna be a editor, photographer, writer and a college instructor. :D
Of stained fingers and elections :) [nasa news feeds eh hehe] #Halalan2013
Bumoto para sa pagbabago #Elections #Halalan2013
You’re finally on Android. #rapplerPH #Rappler
I have made some mistakes in the past, some of which led me to traumatic experiences. I have rationalized that because I was young and ignorant, my mistake is somewhat excusable. But it does not erase the fact that even though those traumatic events happened in the past and now have been buried, I am still bothered from its after-effects. Truth to be told, I have never fully forgiven myself.
It is painful to know the fact that I know this very well. True, I may have myself a thousand times that “forgive yourself”, but to absorb it in a full degree is a rather difficult thing on my part.
These are my chains that hinder me to take a step further on self-discovery and exploration. The need for self-forgiveness is beyond measurable and I cannot do it on my own.
This will be my first long post after a long time.
Seriously, I have a hard time doing catharsis in writing because I have become fearful in expressing my thoughts. I know this is not me, but after the observations I had seen and experienced, I basically do not know on how to start things.
I have changed years ago and now, I have a hard time changing into something different again. I basically know the theories of change, but I do not know how to start the change in me.
I have sudden bouts of sadness - thanks to me overthinking and all the things that come afterwards after that. I am starting to get frustrated with things basically because they don’t go into my way. I have always been ambitious and I have accepted that some of my plans won’t be as exactly as I want it to be. I have accepted some parts of it, but I know deep down that I still want some of my plans to come out as exactly as what they are.
I have been daydreaming and imagining too much, absorbing too many opinions, listening more to my emotions and overanalyzing every detail possible - I am hating every process and it seems that I cannot stop this crap. What used to be a part of my escape is now starting to be detrimental to my being.
REBT therapy - change my cognitions to change my emotions. Easier said than done. I used to be a huge proponent of this one to my friends who have self-esteem issues, but now I am encountering a problem, knowing the answer but I do not know where would I exactly begin with.
I know I have made a lot of mistakes, but what makes things different is that now my mistakes start to haunt me by me overanalyzing and scrutinizing myself for such crap I have done. I have to forgive myself. God forgives, so I have to forgive others and forgive myself too.
Make kuha your copies now. :D